Withering away

I miss you and I miss you so badly
I want to hug you…
Hug you so tight that It suffocates you
Takes away your breath so you know how hard It Is….
To keep the distance, to be away as If the life is taken away

I Just…..

Wanderer

Gone astray as I
Leave behind no
Marks and walk
Like an armour
Made of moonlight
A sword unsheath

In midnight as my
Feet bleed of struggle
I rise in rainstorm
A dance on lightening
With a roar of thunder
I cry out my heart
So full of ache as the
Nature hides me under
It’s wings so wide and
A soul on fire burning
The pain I admire

The scars so velvety
Drunk and dance
I dance In pain In darkness
Away astray stay stray
A wild soul caged
I want to bleed through
Words and cry my pen
Intimates the silvery lines

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As I
See you
Meet you
Feel you
I feel like
You are the one
And I…..
Need you
I want to
Steal you
From you yourself
From rest of the world
I want you
Like
Moon lives for the night
And sun craves for the day
Before the departure
Behind the clouds
I want to kiss you
For my heart’s already missing you

You are Mine

As you caressed my head moving your  fingers through my hair
Grabbing me close to your chest
I could feel the shivers in my spine
Yet it was the happiest feeling


” You are mine “


Your lips
Your smell
The look in your eyes
Intoxicates my senses
As I crave for the need of you
Slowly…..gradually discovering so many sides of you.
Suddenly you push me away, holding my hand
You spin me back into your arms
A kiss placed on me
Is it the beginning
A soft touch….. setting my soul on fire
Once again I’m falling for you
A laughter resonating in this silence
As I dance on your feet
You hold me against the walls
A polite grip on my back
I move a little more close to you and kiss you back
So damn crazy I’ve gone

So madly deeply in love with you
I don’t want to escape
May these moments fail to vanish

Unfathomed

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I tear off the mask

As I enter my room

Hang the laughters on the entrance

I embrace the solitude

Have you ever felt the intense need of to be alone…….

 

 

 

 

I’ll Be a Good Girl….

large (27)That Day _____

I told my mom

“I’ll be a good girl”.

I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart 

I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop

I told my mom

“Don’t worry anymore”

I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream

I’ll clench it so hard

It won’t even breath

I told my mom…..

…… I’ll do as you please

But……..

I couldn’t tell her

Please try to understand me

I die every day craving for It

And bury myself at night In silent screams

I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart

Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart

Please ask me once…

How much it’s so hard

______ I’ll be a good girl

 

For     how      long

I’m  afraid ___

 

 

 

 

Real Pain

Do you know……

° what’s real pain ?

It’s Silent and  Calm 

It devours your Voice

You lose your ability

To shout it to the World _ 

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The Volcano inside me

Mountains

Night

An enchanting moon

Waves dancing in the sea

I’ve all of these in my one Breath

Silent

Avoidance

Whispers

A sad willow tree

On the corner of my

There’s a cliff

So high looking down it’s so deep

Someone’s standing there and that’s me

I escaped

From the world

My bruised feet

My heart covered in scars

My face washed with tears

But now there’s no fear

The Volcano inside me breaths a lot of pain breaking all the chains and there are no more restraints

Now it got a perfect place to erupt……

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