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I’ve no Idea about what’s going on…

What I want?

where I’m going?

How I’m doing?

Do I’ve any time to be happy or Is it just I laugh or smile from the core of my heart even If it lasts just for a little while cz I know It shows right on my face but then a sudden silence is inevitable

I don’t know If I’m a human or a battlefield but I guess that’s how life

It’s fun

Fun to suffer

Fun to bear the pain

Fun to cut off sadness and smile

Fun to kill yourself to live once again.

You won’t give up

You won’t give up

Just because you are lazy

You won’t give up

Just because you are tired

You won’t give up

Just because It’s hard

You won’t give up

Just because you are criticised

You won’t give up

Because you didn’t start to give up

I never knew I was losing

It’s another stormy night

I didn’t know how long it has been and I was staring at the ceiling continuously ….

I was trying to think of something,  to put together all my thoughts…

Once again I was trying a useless effort to collect all the chunks of my words that were scattered like usual …

It felt like even bed was tired of me lying for so long,  I wanted to move the curtains aside but felt my body numb

I wanted to turn on the lights but all i could do was reach my hand out and then felt like falling asleep..

Yeah and it was peaceful and relaxing. I could hear the noise of kids playing outside.

My feet were cold and could feel my ears burning. Eyes were slowly closing and again I prayed to have a Dream. Of wild of a Lonely land with full moon and chamomiles.

I never knew I was Losing.

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As I
See you
Meet you
Feel you
I feel like
You are the one
And I…..
Need you
I want to
Steal you
From you yourself
From rest of the world
I want you
Like
Moon lives for the night
And sun craves for the day
Before the departure
Behind the clouds
I want to kiss you
For my heart’s already missing you

A little beyond the boundaries

Pious, pure and angelic titles
Behind them hides a sinful damsel
Holding back words that make you sin
On your feet I would like to spin

Hopelessly romantic wild
Behind that mask a devil hides
Your touch sculpting me into a sensual muse
Verses played by you giving me cues

Fragmented seducing kisses as they seam
I let my feelings slip through my sleeves
I hid for long and they were ceased
A gentle stroke inviting lust and love
Complaints, wishes, dreams and a little sigh
A tainted smile on lips and shine in eyes
A sudden hug and I fell from skies
Scattered
Shattered
My pieces thrive
Stripped my Soul
Those ugly scars; yikes
Stitches on heart
Tears in my eyes
The grievous dance in your arms
With painful laughters, echoes and cries
So many screams, an existence full of ache
Soulfully soulless
Hopefully hopeless
reasonably unreasonable
…..

And ……..


Beyond the boundaries
My words start losing purity_

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I’m not good at choosing words
Some are like bombs throwing at people
Some are so self destructive and I dunno how to protect myself from myself until it destroys a great part of me

You have at least someone to hold your hand when you fall __ I don’t..

I just have criticism waiting for me…

Lucky are those who get appreciated. I don’t even know how does it feels.

For the last time….

What If I Just stay quiet; I lose my voice

For my words no longer make any sense as I easily lose my mind

So I tried It….. I chose silent when everyone thought I would bring a disaster. Though It was hard but somehow It was peaceful…

Finally I’ve chosen to stay silent instead of wasting my words and earsoring voice to disturb others peace; I’ll be quiet.

It’s gonna be hard but I’ll try my best, will go back into my nest

Away from everyone, I was always better being in my shell

Cz when you try to come out of it, world can only throw stones at you

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If you hold me through those autumn leaves
So tight leaving shivers to my spine
Making me crave for you more as our eyes meet
From a distance I feel myself breathing in you_