To heart & understand the mind……

you can’t be a psychologist in true means until you kill yourself from inside once, until you set your soul on fire and let it burn completely, until you learn to survive all emotional catastrophes.

There’re things hard to believe…..

I could hold you In my arms
Give you a peck or kiss your forehead
Holding your hands and feel your warmth
Sitting under the moonlight and gazing at the stars
Hide myself between the lines then read It to you
I thought It was all a dream until you turned it into a real charm
Now that you are here, I won’t mind falling in love rather than feeling the love but I’m fixated on a phase
All I can offer Is care and respect
There are things hard to believe

As If It’s Just a Dream _

I Just…..

You look okay but you aren’t…..

Is everything okay?
(-yeah)
really??? smth happened?
(-nope, nothing happened)
are you sad?
(-ah no, tell me what did u do today?)
noth particular _ answer what I’m asking.
(-I already said there’s nothing.)
   but your voice says smth else,
(-stop…)
it gives feelings of loneliness…..your words are empty yet I can feel your heart’s so full…..
(-stop please…..!!!)
I don’t know____I don’t know how to describe this feeling but all I see Is a child struck by silence who wants to vent out but got no way no excuse…..
hey!!! you feel your chest heavy….am I ryt? you feel suffocated….!! you don’t know what it is actually and it’s like so messy….!??
(-uhun I don’t know, there’s nothing such as…..I’m okay)
Look at me…….gimme your hand…will you do me a favor???
(-what is it?)
come close____Cry…….
(- i hate it when you talk like this…i hate that tone……i hate it when my crazy alien turns into a deep serious soul….you make me lose….)
your eyes don’t tear but I felt your heart’s crying.
I’m here for you ___will be till my last breath
as If I was born to comfort you, to make you laugh, to support you….your tears as warm as your embrace-

And I……

What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name

On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details

Why?

Everything’s temporary…..interest, so called love and attraction and I’m a wrong person for It.
-shhhhh!!! He put his finger on her lips and replied :
“Why do you always say this….
I tried not to love you, just like you said
But the way you are leaves me no choice but to keep looking at you and end up falling in curiosity of – Just how you pull strings of my heart.
The way you treat my people and I see them waiting for you and the way you are gone for a while and the whole place feels empty and it saddens to think If I enter the room but I won’t see you there and how desperately I await your return but when you’re back I know you won’t hug me despite how much I crave it yet that unexpected touch of your lips in moments I completely lose hope lit up the fire all over again…….
Why do you keep doing this to me…..”.