As If It’s Just a Dream _
You won’t give up
Just because you are lazy
You won’t give up
Just because you are tired
You won’t give up
Just because It’s hard
You won’t give up
Just because you are criticised
You won’t give up
Because you didn’t start to give up
Just for a while
I was a person
I always wished to be
then I woke up from this dream
and entered into a nightmarish reality
A place where I don’t get to hear the world society
I wanna escape from everything for a while and take refuge in thought of being happy
Somewhere far away
Surrounded by mountains and sea
Where there are meadows and tall trees
Wanna shut myself In and Undress my heart
Gather a lot of courage and have a look at the scars covering my heart
While removing every layer I let my wounds bleed and let myself fall apart
With my feelings shattering letting my soul cry hard
Wanna be alone with thoughts of none
Somewhere far away
A little Catharsis as my aesthetic sense fills the gaps slowly while the wind rises and soothes me to get better
I heal myself to take my last breaths there or come back to fight another battle
I’m just a rebellious being_ betting on my life carrying risk and self destructive material in an immense amount.
That Day _____
I told my mom
“I’ll be a good girl”.
I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart
I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop
I told my mom
“Don’t worry anymore”
I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream
I’ll clench it so hard
It won’t even breath
I told my mom…..
…… I’ll do as you please
But……..
I couldn’t tell her
Please try to understand me
I die every day craving for It
And bury myself at night In silent screams
I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart
Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart
Please ask me once…
How much it’s so hard
______ I’ll be a good girl
For how long
I’m afraid ___
Do you know……
° what’s real pain ?
It’s Silent and Calm
It devours your Voice
You lose your ability
To shout it to the World _
One Night Love
But he promised to stay together
Forever and ever after
He’s the guy who made your heartbeats skipped fast
Some meetings and exchange of coffee cups
He told you he loves your innocence and grace
Your eyes, your heart and the smile on your face
He came close and whispered to you
” I love you, your body and it’s shape “.
-Before we get married there are some steps
– let’s know each other more, let’s stay together
It’ll be once, let’s do it together
Together break the boundaries, let’s discover our hearts
Just for one night, then we will never be apart
You were hesitant but he has your heart
You wanted to prove him you are sincere, you love him hard
The lust in his eyes___ you thought it’s love
He’s over tonight, to ruin your life
You were told, it would alright
It was your mistake, your love at first sight
You were thirsty of love, it turned you blind
You are lying bruised, sheets scares you out
He’s on call say ” Baby I’m alright “.
He’s leaving behind the door taking away
Your virginity, dignity, grace and right
You are alone with your screams and night full of fright
You were a toy, someone’s love of one night.
AND WHEN I DIE
SOMEONE STAND UP
ON MY GRAVE AND SAY
SHE SAID SHE WAS IN PAIN
BUT NO ONE HEARD
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