Withering away

I miss you and I miss you so badly
I want to hug you…
Hug you so tight that It suffocates you
Takes away your breath so you know how hard It Is….
To keep the distance, to be away as If the life is taken away

Random

There’re things hard to believe…..

I could hold you In my arms
Give you a peck or kiss your forehead
Holding your hands and feel your warmth
Sitting under the moonlight and gazing at the stars
Hide myself between the lines then read It to you
I thought It was all a dream until you turned it into a real charm
Now that you are here, I won’t mind falling in love rather than feeling the love but I’m fixated on a phase
All I can offer Is care and respect
There are things hard to believe

As If It’s Just a Dream _

I Just…..

• 

I’ve no idea why I’m so tired and I Just want to cry……
cry a lot until my eyes lose their tears and voice departs to the skies

You look okay but you aren’t…..

Is everything okay?
(-yeah)
really??? smth happened?
(-nope, nothing happened)
are you sad?
(-ah no, tell me what did u do today?)
noth particular _ answer what I’m asking.
(-I already said there’s nothing.)
   but your voice says smth else,
(-stop…)
it gives feelings of loneliness…..your words are empty yet I can feel your heart’s so full…..
(-stop please…..!!!)
I don’t know____I don’t know how to describe this feeling but all I see Is a child struck by silence who wants to vent out but got no way no excuse…..
hey!!! you feel your chest heavy….am I ryt? you feel suffocated….!! you don’t know what it is actually and it’s like so messy….!??
(-uhun I don’t know, there’s nothing such as…..I’m okay)
Look at me…….gimme your hand…will you do me a favor???
(-what is it?)
come close____Cry…….
(- i hate it when you talk like this…i hate that tone……i hate it when my crazy alien turns into a deep serious soul….you make me lose….)
your eyes don’t tear but I felt your heart’s crying.
I’m here for you ___will be till my last breath
as If I was born to comfort you, to make you laugh, to support you….your tears as warm as your embrace-

And I……

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What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name

On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details

Irony

_____…….______

I’m

Everyone’s

Favourite

Until

I

Say

Something

They

Hate…..

You won’t give up

You won’t give up

Just because you are lazy

You won’t give up

Just because you are tired

You won’t give up

Just because It’s hard

You won’t give up

Just because you are criticised

You won’t give up

Because you didn’t start to give up

I never knew I was losing

It’s another stormy night

I didn’t know how long it has been and I was staring at the ceiling continuously ….

I was trying to think of something,  to put together all my thoughts…

Once again I was trying a useless effort to collect all the chunks of my words that were scattered like usual …

It felt like even bed was tired of me lying for so long,  I wanted to move the curtains aside but felt my body numb

I wanted to turn on the lights but all i could do was reach my hand out and then felt like falling asleep..

Yeah and it was peaceful and relaxing. I could hear the noise of kids playing outside.

My feet were cold and could feel my ears burning. Eyes were slowly closing and again I prayed to have a Dream. Of wild of a Lonely land with full moon and chamomiles.

I never knew I was Losing.

Nameless Feelings.6

As I
See you
Meet you
Feel you
I feel like
You are the one
And I…..
Need you
I want to
Steal you
From you yourself
From rest of the world
I want you
Like
Moon lives for the night
And sun craves for the day
Before the departure
Behind the clouds
I want to kiss you
For my heart’s already missing you