
If you hold me through those autumn leaves
So tight leaving shivers to my spine
Making me crave for you more as our eyes meet
From a distance I feel myself breathing in you_
If you hold me through those autumn leaves
So tight leaving shivers to my spine
Making me crave for you more as our eyes meet
From a distance I feel myself breathing in you_
Do you think I won’t pay for whatever damage I caused to people’s hearts. How great of a disappointment I have been. That I won’t pay for rejecting love that was offered to me just because nothing comforts me anymore. People’s materialistic preferences make me sick and all I can do is despise them
Every time I made decisions without confronting myself thinking there might be the reason someone who knows me better than me. Someone who’s worth it all. Maybe I dunno but someone can change me. For whom I can put my ego aside but I couldn’t open up my heart. Maybe I’m just destined to stay lost …
I just misunderstood myself… I thought I was too easy…
_____ L o v e _____
People
Aren’t
Worth
It….
Nobody
Loves
You
They
All
____ P r e t e n d _____
I tear off the mask
As I enter my room
Hang the laughters on the entrance
I embrace the solitude
Have you ever felt the intense need of to be alone…….
That Day _____
I told my mom
“I’ll be a good girl”.
I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart
I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop
I told my mom
“Don’t worry anymore”
I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream
I’ll clench it so hard
It won’t even breath
I told my mom…..
…… I’ll do as you please
But……..
I couldn’t tell her
Please try to understand me
I die every day craving for It
And bury myself at night In silent screams
I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart
Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart
Please ask me once…
How much it’s so hard
______ I’ll be a good girl
For how long
I’m afraid ___
Do you know……
° what’s real pain ?
It’s Silent and Calm
It devours your Voice
You lose your ability
To shout it to the World _
Mountains
Night
An enchanting moon
Waves dancing in the sea
I’ve all of these in my one Breath
Silent
Avoidance
Whispers
A sad willow tree
On the corner of my
There’s a cliff
So high looking down it’s so deep
Someone’s standing there and that’s me
I escaped
From the world
My bruised feet
My heart covered in scars
My face washed with tears
But now there’s no fear
The Volcano inside me breaths a lot of pain breaking all the chains and there are no more restraints
Now it got a perfect place to erupt……
One Night Love
But he promised to stay together
Forever and ever after
He’s the guy who made your heartbeats skipped fast
Some meetings and exchange of coffee cups
He told you he loves your innocence and grace
Your eyes, your heart and the smile on your face
He came close and whispered to you
” I love you, your body and it’s shape “.
-Before we get married there are some steps
– let’s know each other more, let’s stay together
It’ll be once, let’s do it together
Together break the boundaries, let’s discover our hearts
Just for one night, then we will never be apart
You were hesitant but he has your heart
You wanted to prove him you are sincere, you love him hard
The lust in his eyes___ you thought it’s love
He’s over tonight, to ruin your life
You were told, it would alright
It was your mistake, your love at first sight
You were thirsty of love, it turned you blind
You are lying bruised, sheets scares you out
He’s on call say ” Baby I’m alright “.
He’s leaving behind the door taking away
Your virginity, dignity, grace and right
You are alone with your screams and night full of fright
You were a toy, someone’s love of one night.
AND WHEN I DIE
SOMEONE STAND UP
ON MY GRAVE AND SAY
SHE SAID SHE WAS IN PAIN
BUT NO ONE HEARD
You said _ i’ll be there when you are about to lose
I’m falling apart _ where are you now
I lost everything _ look what have you done
My heart is a circus and beats are the dolls_
-S.killer
I’m giving it a try
I’m going all out
Again I’m taking in all the screams
I’m gonna house all the pain
What about all the tears left without any box to hide
I’m taking all the burden
Again I’m dying and I see no grave where i can bury all the grieves
If I rest there someone stand up and say
She was saying she’s not ok but nobody heard her _
Someone collect my all pieces and send back to me
I’m bleeding but it’s gonna take a lot to pass out
Someone stand close to me then and say
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
-S.killer