
happy anymore.
I Just want It to Rain.
I Just want to Cry.
As If It’s Just a Dream _
What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name
On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details
If you hold me through those autumn leaves
So tight leaving shivers to my spine
Making me crave for you more as our eyes meet
From a distance I feel myself breathing in you_
When soul wants to fly; cry!
When emotions sleep; weep
For the last time paiñ kisses; misses
Some echos so deep; reap
Some words you feel; heal
Violent, vigorous and cool; a fool
A soul In the wild; child
Will you have a look at; ayhh
My impermanent heart; scars
Close enough on you fingers; tingles
Every wound you touch; clutch
A flower blooms and behind it a shadow; looms
A shattered soul wants you stay; away
I’m just a rebellious being_ betting on my life carrying risk and self destructive material in an immense amount.
That Day _____
I told my mom
“I’ll be a good girl”.
I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart
I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop
I told my mom
“Don’t worry anymore”
I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream
I’ll clench it so hard
It won’t even breath
I told my mom…..
…… I’ll do as you please
But……..
I couldn’t tell her
Please try to understand me
I die every day craving for It
And bury myself at night In silent screams
I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart
Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart
Please ask me once…
How much it’s so hard
______ I’ll be a good girl
For how long
I’m afraid ___
Do you know……
° what’s real pain ?
It’s Silent and Calm
It devours your Voice
You lose your ability
To shout it to the World _