That Day _____
I told my mom
“I’ll be a good girl”.
I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart
I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop
I told my mom
“Don’t worry anymore”
I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream
I’ll clench it so hard
It won’t even breath
I told my mom…..
…… I’ll do as you please
But……..
I couldn’t tell her
Please try to understand me
I die every day craving for It
And bury myself at night In silent screams
I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart
Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart
Please ask me once…
How much it’s so hard
______ I’ll be a good girl
For how long
I’m afraid ___