You are Mine

As you caressed my head moving your  fingers through my hair
Grabbing me close to your chest
I could feel the shivers in my spine
Yet it was the happiest feeling


” You are mine “


Your lips
Your smell
The look in your eyes
Intoxicates my senses
As I crave for the need of you
Slowly…..gradually discovering so many sides of you.
Suddenly you push me away, holding my hand
You spin me back into your arms
A kiss placed on me
Is it the beginning
A soft touch….. setting my soul on fire
Once again I’m falling for you
A laughter resonating in this silence
As I dance on your feet
You hold me against the walls
A polite grip on my back
I move a little more close to you and kiss you back
So damn crazy I’ve gone

So madly deeply in love with you
I don’t want to escape
May these moments fail to vanish

Can I stop being so strong before you…..

Can I tell you I’m badly hurt
Heart aches so much that
It might explode
Can I tell you I have had it enough
Now I just want to give it a rest
But I keep on being like this more and more

After facing the world can I stop being so strong before you and cry my heart out…

I Just want to sleep for a while

I dunno when I slept last time with my heart at peace

I’ll Be a Good Girl….

large (27)That Day _____

I told my mom

“I’ll be a good girl”.

I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart 

I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop

I told my mom

“Don’t worry anymore”

I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream

I’ll clench it so hard

It won’t even breath

I told my mom…..

…… I’ll do as you please

But……..

I couldn’t tell her

Please try to understand me

I die every day craving for It

And bury myself at night In silent screams

I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart

Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart

Please ask me once…

How much it’s so hard

______ I’ll be a good girl

 

For     how      long

I’m  afraid ___

 

 

 

 

Real Pain

Do you know……

° what’s real pain ?

It’s Silent and  Calm 

It devours your Voice

You lose your ability

To shout it to the World _ 

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The Volcano inside me

Mountains

Night

An enchanting moon

Waves dancing in the sea

I’ve all of these in my one Breath

Silent

Avoidance

Whispers

A sad willow tree

On the corner of my

There’s a cliff

So high looking down it’s so deep

Someone’s standing there and that’s me

I escaped

From the world

My bruised feet

My heart covered in scars

My face washed with tears

But now there’s no fear

The Volcano inside me breaths a lot of pain breaking all the chains and there are no more restraints

Now it got a perfect place to erupt……

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One Night Love

One Night Love
But he promised to stay together
Forever and ever after
He’s the guy who made your heartbeats skipped fast
Some meetings and exchange of coffee cups
He told you he loves your innocence and grace
Your eyes, your heart and the smile on your face
He came close and whispered to you
” I love you, your body and it’s shape “.
-Before we get married there are some steps
– let’s know each other more, let’s stay together
It’ll be once, let’s do it together
Together break the boundaries, let’s discover our hearts
Just for one night, then we will never be apart
You were hesitant but he has your heart
You wanted to prove him you are sincere, you love him hard
The lust in his eyes___ you thought it’s love
He’s over tonight, to ruin your life
You were told, it would alright
It was your mistake, your love at first sight
You were thirsty of love, it turned you blind
You are lying bruised, sheets scares you out
He’s on call say ” Baby I’m alright “.
He’s leaving behind the door taking away
Your virginity, dignity, grace and right
You are alone with your screams and night full of fright
You were a toy, someone’s love of one night.

When I Die

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AND WHEN I DIE

SOMEONE STAND UP

ON MY GRAVE AND SAY

SHE SAID SHE WAS IN PAIN

BUT NO ONE HEARD

I want you Completely

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It’s a lot cringy here
The cuts on my heart sting
Every time I see your sight
For how long you will make me
Do the impossible
For how long I’ve to bury my feelings that keep piling up

^_^

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Risking my heart

I locked away my emotions
I was suffering
Keep everything to myself
I was afraid to lose you
I was patient
I waited
But I was restless all this time
I gave it a shot
And
Here I’m ___ close to you
Risking my heart
Hey !!!!

Don’t break it_

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