Now what should I do with this heart that loved you…….

Hold your grounds as I bounce back the feelings I caught from you
the pain and agony and a lot of torture left by you
i feel myself resting In your claws, the smoothest touch I ever felt from you
the gust of emotions, the cravings I’ve for you
I’m left and left alone with this heart dying for you.
come closer, a little closer, more close as I wanna have a close glimpse of you….
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I Just…..

You look okay but you aren’t…..

Is everything okay?
(-yeah)
really??? smth happened?
(-nope, nothing happened)
are you sad?
(-ah no, tell me what did u do today?)
noth particular _ answer what I’m asking.
(-I already said there’s nothing.)
   but your voice says smth else,
(-stop…)
it gives feelings of loneliness…..your words are empty yet I can feel your heart’s so full…..
(-stop please…..!!!)
I don’t know____I don’t know how to describe this feeling but all I see Is a child struck by silence who wants to vent out but got no way no excuse…..
hey!!! you feel your chest heavy….am I ryt? you feel suffocated….!! you don’t know what it is actually and it’s like so messy….!??
(-uhun I don’t know, there’s nothing such as…..I’m okay)
Look at me…….gimme your hand…will you do me a favor???
(-what is it?)
come close____Cry…….
(- i hate it when you talk like this…i hate that tone……i hate it when my crazy alien turns into a deep serious soul….you make me lose….)
your eyes don’t tear but I felt your heart’s crying.
I’m here for you ___will be till my last breath
as If I was born to comfort you, to make you laugh, to support you….your tears as warm as your embrace-

And I……

What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name

On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details

Wanderer

Gone astray as I
Leave behind no
Marks and walk
Like an armour
Made of moonlight
A sword unsheath

In midnight as my
Feet bleed of struggle
I rise in rainstorm
A dance on lightening
With a roar of thunder
I cry out my heart
So full of ache as the
Nature hides me under
It’s wings so wide and
A soul on fire burning
The pain I admire

The scars so velvety
Drunk and dance
I dance In pain In darkness
Away astray stay stray
A wild soul caged
I want to bleed through
Words and cry my pen
Intimates the silvery lines

The life I don’t wanna live, makes me want to live it….

I can’t tell anything about myself

What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….

What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……

Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…

Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..

My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on

I don’t have the power

………

So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.

…… I’m curious to see ……

No way to back off

I can’t show you any mercy If I see you down

I’m not gonna pity you If you are weak and about to back off

I’m gonna punch you in your guts, snap the hell out of you and kick your ass to make you move forward

Cry the hell out like a child, shout, feel discouraged and when you are done; get the hell up or I’ll smash your skull in the wall _ tell you to see that damn blood that’s saying you are alive that means you need to keep fighting till your soul takes its flight.

A little beyond the boundaries

Pious, pure and angelic titles
Behind them hides a sinful damsel
Holding back words that make you sin
On your feet I would like to spin

Hopelessly romantic wild
Behind that mask a devil hides
Your touch sculpting me into a sensual muse
Verses played by you giving me cues

Fragmented seducing kisses as they seam
I let my feelings slip through my sleeves
I hid for long and they were ceased
A gentle stroke inviting lust and love
Complaints, wishes, dreams and a little sigh
A tainted smile on lips and shine in eyes
A sudden hug and I fell from skies
Scattered
Shattered
My pieces thrive
Stripped my Soul
Those ugly scars; yikes
Stitches on heart
Tears in my eyes
The grievous dance in your arms
With painful laughters, echoes and cries
So many screams, an existence full of ache
Soulfully soulless
Hopefully hopeless
reasonably unreasonable
…..

And ……..


Beyond the boundaries
My words start losing purity_