Gone astray as I Leave behind no Marks and walk Like an armour Made of moonlight A sword unsheath
In midnight as my Feet bleed of struggle I rise in rainstorm A dance on lightening With a roar of thunder I cry out my heart So full of ache as the Nature hides me under It’s wings so wide and A soul on fire burning The pain I admire
The scars so velvety Drunk and dance I dance In pain In darkness Away astray stay stray A wild soul caged I want to bleed through Words and cry my pen Intimates the silvery lines
What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….
What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……
Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…
Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..
My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on
I don’t have the power
………
So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.
Pious, pure and angelic titles Behind them hides a sinful damsel Holding back words that make you sin On your feet I would like to spin
Hopelessly romantic wild Behind that mask a devil hides Your touch sculpting me into a sensual muse Verses played by you giving me cues
Fragmented seducing kisses as they seam I let my feelings slip through my sleeves I hid for long and they were ceased A gentle stroke inviting lust and love Complaints, wishes, dreams and a little sigh A tainted smile on lips and shine in eyes A sudden hug and I fell from skies Scattered Shattered My pieces thrive Stripped my Soul Those ugly scars; yikes Stitches on heart Tears in my eyes The grievous dance in your arms With painful laughters, echoes and cries So many screams, an existence full of ache Soulfully soulless Hopefully hopeless reasonably unreasonable …..
And ……..
Beyond the boundaries My words start losing purity_
I’m not good at choosing words Some are like bombs throwing at people Some are so self destructive and I dunno how to protect myself from myself until it destroys a great part of me
You have at least someone to hold your hand when you fall __ I don’t..
I just have criticism waiting for me…
Lucky are those who get appreciated. I don’t even know how does it feels.
You said you will have 4 kids __ two daughters and two sons.
You wanted me to stay single and teach your children but laughing while saying ” no I don’t want a perverty tutor for my kids, you will spoil them”.
You shared your dreams with me.
You had tell everyone ” Hey Listen ! I changed this grumpy rascal into a chatterbox , It was me who took away her frown but she can kick your ass If you hurt me”.
You were a plethora of laughter who had argue with me every time I said ” What If I die before you ” ____ and you would say ” What If I do “……
And You Won……
I pray ___ May your soul be at peace
May your grave be filled with warm and peaceful light
____ It is …. unbelievable like someone told me a joke… Feels like you are still there asking me to pick the white rose stealthily from the garden in front of principal office
Still feels like you waving your hand and yelling ” Moon you idiot, you are late , we were waiting for you “….
I still see those times ___ how you used to put your shoe on a chair to save my seat and complain cz I was always late than the rest…
How can I forget those times , we had sneak into last seat on last period just to have fun while eating mandarins and throwing messages written on papers and pass till professor would say ” I can see you well from this spot “……
Times you fought and argue with seniors for me saying ” She got a bad temper but she has a nice heart ”
You will stay in my memories forever ….. 25April2020
One Night Love
But he promised to stay together
Forever and ever after
He’s the guy who made your heartbeats skipped fast
Some meetings and exchange of coffee cups
He told you he loves your innocence and grace
Your eyes, your heart and the smile on your face
He came close and whispered to you
” I love you, your body and it’s shape “.
-Before we get married there are some steps
– let’s know each other more, let’s stay together
It’ll be once, let’s do it together
Together break the boundaries, let’s discover our hearts
Just for one night, then we will never be apart
You were hesitant but he has your heart
You wanted to prove him you are sincere, you love him hard
The lust in his eyes___ you thought it’s love
He’s over tonight, to ruin your life
You were told, it would alright
It was your mistake, your love at first sight
You were thirsty of love, it turned you blind
You are lying bruised, sheets scares you out
He’s on call say ” Baby I’m alright “.
He’s leaving behind the door taking away
Your virginity, dignity, grace and right
You are alone with your screams and night full of fright
You were a toy, someone’s love of one night.
That Day _____
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