I Just…..

And I……

What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name

On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details

The life I don’t wanna live, makes me want to live it….

I can’t tell anything about myself

What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….

What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……

Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…

Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..

My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on

I don’t have the power

………

So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.

…… I’m curious to see ……

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If you hold me through those autumn leaves
So tight leaving shivers to my spine
Making me crave for you more as our eyes meet
From a distance I feel myself breathing in you_

Confession#2

People have goals

People have aims to make their dreams come true

Everyone has someone special they wanna be with for the rest of their lives

Something awesome to look forward too

Waiting for surprises….

I’m void of all of these

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Do you know the kind of people who leave no stone unturned to make you look like a stained impure being yet pretend to be caring….
I’ve been among them looking at their faces closely, silent Instead of being violent for I know they dun worth it
The feeling of being in a state where you wish to avenge but a part of you holds you back and let karma do it’s job
Catching their lies how they sugarcoat you in your presence but their hearts overflowing with hatred as if they are playing with you but you are rather enjoying how naive they are
Do you feel sorry for them???
You have no other choice but to pity them and let them live with their false assumptions.

I lust your love

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I’m sorry
For loving you like
It’s gonna be the last time
I’m sorry
For
Loving you so violently
I’m sorry
That I’ve gone so
damn crazy for you
It’s like I won’t have enough of you
I’m sorry for being greedy
But I lust your love

I wish for you with searing desires

Awoken feelings

I crave for you

I want you like eternity
I want all of you…

Don’t love me

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Yes I am crazy one who talk about love
When have never been in love
But would you believe me If I say I’ve experienced it through people’s eyes …. how badly they need it yet I don’t want you to love me for I won’t be able to love you back as I don’t know how does it feels.
I am Maniac who gets Hyper
A selfish being who gets tired of Caring
A little savage yes I feel so much but end up hurting everyone cause I still have no Idea how to get a hold on my possessiveness
Yeah! I know i am damn aggressive and violent and I don’t mind if i have to Run away or to kill
To make my heart feel at peace.
Yeah! I know nothing about people and its like nuisance to me
I accept I am not normal
And I dun mind getting the hell outa here
But……
Why I’m so helpless
I’m chained….

Amour _

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Heartbeats
Faster than
the horse of
A battlefield
A silently
smouldering kiss
Deeper than
Any sea
Your
intoxicating tone
Taking away
my breaths
A spark from
Your searing soul
Teasing my
Sleeping feelings
whisper of your eyes
Like a spade
scintillating
Targeting my
Imperfect heart

A smile full of life…

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laughter, smile and 

Glistening eyes

The most beautiful combination and behind It is hiding a heavy amount of pain 

You know it’s so rich,  so full of life

When you know how does it feel to be sad

To be empty while trying to be happy

Tortured by pain alone with nobody there to comfort

But when they get to see the smile for real on your face;  It lit up an unextinguished fire in the hearts ___