As If It’s Just a Dream _
That Day _____
I told my mom
“I’ll be a good girl”.
I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart
I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop
I told my mom
“Don’t worry anymore”
I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream
I’ll clench it so hard
It won’t even breath
I told my mom…..
…… I’ll do as you please
But……..
I couldn’t tell her
Please try to understand me
I die every day craving for It
And bury myself at night In silent screams
I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart
Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart
Please ask me once…
How much it’s so hard
______ I’ll be a good girl
For how long
I’m afraid ___
One Night Love
But he promised to stay together
Forever and ever after
He’s the guy who made your heartbeats skipped fast
Some meetings and exchange of coffee cups
He told you he loves your innocence and grace
Your eyes, your heart and the smile on your face
He came close and whispered to you
” I love you, your body and it’s shape “.
-Before we get married there are some steps
– let’s know each other more, let’s stay together
It’ll be once, let’s do it together
Together break the boundaries, let’s discover our hearts
Just for one night, then we will never be apart
You were hesitant but he has your heart
You wanted to prove him you are sincere, you love him hard
The lust in his eyes___ you thought it’s love
He’s over tonight, to ruin your life
You were told, it would alright
It was your mistake, your love at first sight
You were thirsty of love, it turned you blind
You are lying bruised, sheets scares you out
He’s on call say ” Baby I’m alright “.
He’s leaving behind the door taking away
Your virginity, dignity, grace and right
You are alone with your screams and night full of fright
You were a toy, someone’s love of one night.
AND WHEN I DIE
SOMEONE STAND UP
ON MY GRAVE AND SAY
SHE SAID SHE WAS IN PAIN
BUT NO ONE HEARD
It’s a lot cringy here
The cuts on my heart sting
Every time I see your sight
For how long you will make me
Do the impossible
For how long I’ve to bury my feelings that keep piling up
I’m giving it a try
I’m going all out
Again I’m taking in all the screams
I’m gonna house all the pain
What about all the tears left without any box to hide
I’m taking all the burden
Again I’m dying and I see no grave where i can bury all the grieves
If I rest there someone stand up and say
She was saying she’s not ok but nobody heard her _
Someone collect my all pieces and send back to me
I’m bleeding but it’s gonna take a lot to pass out
Someone stand close to me then and say
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
-S.killer
What I’m suppose to write, I dunno
Some magical words that capture the readers hearts? I’m not sure
All I remember are deathly beautiful blue eyes shining in the Moonlight
Tears rolling down while kissing the lips, they leave their warmth slipping through face
A voice so captivating like a spring in the darkness of night
Some words stripping the old memories covered in venomous smiles
A heartache smouldering a bruised soul for eternity
I remember the Crimson autumn leaves burning the pathways
What is love?
It’s forbidden, deception or a child’s play…
Lies making a thread to woven betrayal
There were so many complains like a stream
A lot of messages filled with screams
You grabbed my heart
Touched my soul
Snatched my dreams_
Some Goodbyes are life-taking
Some Goodbyes are Blessings
when i write 