As If It’s Just a Dream _
What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name
On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details
I can’t tell anything about myself
What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….
What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……
Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…
Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..
My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on
I don’t have the power
So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.
…… I’m curious to see ……
Having you before me like this makes me want to steal you from you
This predestined fortuity tempts me to lay my bleeding pieces before you hoping you fill me up with your clandestine buckets of love while placing your heavenly touch on me
Paying for the sins I committed
What good is this innocence for
I’ve slandered so many people emotionally
I’m paying for all the lies I told
To disconnect from everyone when I was already away from them
What good is this heart of mine for….
When I couldn’t use it for any good
Now it’s living in a hell I created myself
What good is this smile for …..
I’m unable to smile for real in the end
Now a frown has taken over it
What good are my words for
When they only hurt others
I could never be a healer but a torture
I’m living in a hell I created myself
Do you think I would want to live a future cursed by everyone …..