Withering away

I miss you and I miss you so badly
I want to hug you…
Hug you so tight that It suffocates you
Takes away your breath so you know how hard It Is….
To keep the distance, to be away as If the life is taken away

To heart & understand the mind……

you can’t be a psychologist in true means until you kill yourself from inside once, until you set your soul on fire and let it burn completely, until you learn to survive all emotional catastrophes.

Fading away

Should I stay silent
or say it all
should I keep it to myself
or break your heart

Random

There’re things hard to believe…..

I could hold you In my arms
Give you a peck or kiss your forehead
Holding your hands and feel your warmth
Sitting under the moonlight and gazing at the stars
Hide myself between the lines then read It to you
I thought It was all a dream until you turned it into a real charm
Now that you are here, I won’t mind falling in love rather than feeling the love but I’m fixated on a phase
All I can offer Is care and respect
There are things hard to believe

As If It’s Just a Dream _

I Just…..

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I’ve no idea why I’m so tired and I Just want to cry……
cry a lot until my eyes lose their tears and voice departs to the skies

And I……

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What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name

On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details

The life I don’t wanna live, makes me want to live it….

I can’t tell anything about myself

What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….

What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……

Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…

Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..

My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on

I don’t have the power

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So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.

…… I’m curious to see ……

A Romantic Machination

My scarred heart burns with the searing desire of being abducted by you…

Having you before me like this makes me want to steal you from you

This predestined fortuity tempts me to lay my bleeding pieces before you hoping you fill me up with your clandestine buckets of love while placing your heavenly touch on me

Cursed

I’m paying
Paying for the sins I committed
What good is this innocence for
I’ve slandered so many people emotionally
I’m paying for all the lies I told
To disconnect from everyone when I was already away from them
What good is this heart of mine for….
When I couldn’t use it for any good
Now it’s living in a hell I created myself
What good is this smile for …..
I’m unable to smile for real in the end
Now a frown has taken over it
What good are my words for
When they only hurt others
I could never be a healer but a torture
I’m living in a hell I created myself
Do you think I would want to live a future cursed by everyone …..