cry a lot until my eyes lose their tears and voice departs to the skies
I Just…..
cry a lot until my eyes lose their tears and voice departs to the skies
What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name
On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details
Gone astray as I
Leave behind no
Marks and walk
Like an armour
Made of moonlight
A sword unsheath
In midnight as my
Feet bleed of struggle
I rise in rainstorm
A dance on lightening
With a roar of thunder
I cry out my heart
So full of ache as the
Nature hides me under
It’s wings so wide and
A soul on fire burning
The pain I admire
The scars so velvety
Drunk and dance
I dance In pain In darkness
Away astray stay stray
A wild soul caged
I want to bleed through
Words and cry my pen
Intimates the silvery lines
I can’t tell anything about myself
What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….
What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……
Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…
Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..
My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on
I don’t have the power
………
So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.
…… I’m curious to see ……
I’m sorry
For loving you like
It’s gonna be the last time
I’m sorry
For
Loving you so violently
I’m sorry
That I’ve gone so
damn crazy for you
It’s like I won’t have enough of you
I’m sorry for being greedy
But I lust your love
I wish for you with searing desires
Awoken feelings
I crave for you
I want you like eternity
I want all of you…
Yes I am crazy one who talk about love
When have never been in love
But would you believe me If I say I’ve experienced it through people’s eyes …. how badly they need it yet I don’t want you to love me for I won’t be able to love you back as I don’t know how does it feels.
I am Maniac who gets Hyper
A selfish being who gets tired of Caring
A little savage yes I feel so much but end up hurting everyone cause I still have no Idea how to get a hold on my possessiveness
Yeah! I know i am damn aggressive and violent and I don’t mind if i have to Run away or to kill
To make my heart feel at peace.
Yeah! I know nothing about people and its like nuisance to me
I accept I am not normal
And I dun mind getting the hell outa here
But……
Why I’m so helpless
I’m chained….
laughter, smile and
Glistening eyes
The most beautiful combination and behind It is hiding a heavy amount of pain
You know it’s so rich, so full of life
When you know how does it feel to be sad
To be empty while trying to be happy
Tortured by pain alone with nobody there to comfort
But when they get to see the smile for real on your face; It lit up an unextinguished fire in the hearts ___
I tear off the mask
As I enter my room
Hang the laughters on the entrance
I embrace the solitude
Have you ever felt the intense need of to be alone…….
That Day _____
I told my mom
“I’ll be a good girl”.
I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart
I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop
I told my mom
“Don’t worry anymore”
I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream
I’ll clench it so hard
It won’t even breath
I told my mom…..
…… I’ll do as you please
But……..
I couldn’t tell her
Please try to understand me
I die every day craving for It
And bury myself at night In silent screams
I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart
Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart
Please ask me once…
How much it’s so hard
______ I’ll be a good girl
For how long
I’m afraid ___
Do you know……
° what’s real pain ?
It’s Silent and Calm
It devours your Voice
You lose your ability
To shout it to the World _