There’re things hard to believe…..

I could hold you In my arms
Give you a peck or kiss your forehead
Holding your hands and feel your warmth
Sitting under the moonlight and gazing at the stars
Hide myself between the lines then read It to you
I thought It was all a dream until you turned it into a real charm
Now that you are here, I won’t mind falling in love rather than feeling the love but I’m fixated on a phase
All I can offer Is care and respect
There are things hard to believe

As If It’s Just a Dream _

I Just…..

And I……

What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name

On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details

The life I don’t wanna live, makes me want to live it….

I can’t tell anything about myself

What I’ve decided… what’s decided for me by someone for my future….

What the people around me expect from me…..what kinda person they wanna see in me……

Unexpected events happen suddenly…. Like an invisible force invading ….. Sometimes it makes me happy sometimes It makes me ache…

Sometime I just feel like how great is the divine power….. am I being helped out …smth very close to happen, right at the door but It suddenly stops…..

My life…..Its leaves me speechless how It goes on

I don’t have the power

………

So I’ve stopped telling …… What’s the plan for the future.

…… I’m curious to see ……

No way to back off

I can’t show you any mercy If I see you down

I’m not gonna pity you If you are weak and about to back off

I’m gonna punch you in your guts, snap the hell out of you and kick your ass to make you move forward

Cry the hell out like a child, shout, feel discouraged and when you are done; get the hell up or I’ll smash your skull in the wall _ tell you to see that damn blood that’s saying you are alive that means you need to keep fighting till your soul takes its flight.

A smile full of life…

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laughter, smile and 

Glistening eyes

The most beautiful combination and behind It is hiding a heavy amount of pain 

You know it’s so rich,  so full of life

When you know how does it feel to be sad

To be empty while trying to be happy

Tortured by pain alone with nobody there to comfort

But when they get to see the smile for real on your face;  It lit up an unextinguished fire in the hearts ___

Unfathomed

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I tear off the mask

As I enter my room

Hang the laughters on the entrance

I embrace the solitude

Have you ever felt the intense need of to be alone…….