Let me Stay this Happy…..

Just don’t do It, don’t take away my trust, my dreams, a castle of forever I built with you.
Don’t snatch away, my sensitivity, my sense to feel, just don’t take away my tears…
Stay here, stay close, stay strong, stay loyal
Just don’t turn my heart stone.
I wanna keep feeling this feeling of happiness, togetherness, closeness
Don’t wake me up even if it’s just a dream.
I love you, I loved you….don’t turn these things strangers to me.
I don’t have any energy left to hate It again.
If you do it, firstly take my breath away.

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Wanderer

Gone astray as I
Leave behind no
Marks and walk
Like an armour
Made of moonlight
A sword unsheath

In midnight as my
Feet bleed of struggle
I rise in rainstorm
A dance on lightening
With a roar of thunder
I cry out my heart
So full of ache as the
Nature hides me under
It’s wings so wide and
A soul on fire burning
The pain I admire

The scars so velvety
Drunk and dance
I dance In pain In darkness
Away astray stay stray
A wild soul caged
I want to bleed through
Words and cry my pen
Intimates the silvery lines

I’ll Be a Good Girl….

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I told my mom

“I’ll be a good girl”.

I’ll numb all of the pain residing in my Heart 

I’ll dig a grave and bury it to stop

I told my mom

“Don’t worry anymore”

I’ll get rid of my only desire my only wish and dream

I’ll clench it so hard

It won’t even breath

I told my mom…..

…… I’ll do as you please

But……..

I couldn’t tell her

Please try to understand me

I die every day craving for It

And bury myself at night In silent screams

I kill it every day but it throbs in my heart

Torture me in my smiles and hugs me when I’m about to fall apart

Please ask me once…

How much it’s so hard

______ I’ll be a good girl

 

For     how      long

I’m  afraid ___

 

 

 

 

Real Pain

Do you know……

° what’s real pain ?

It’s Silent and  Calm 

It devours your Voice

You lose your ability

To shout it to the World _ 

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The Volcano inside me

Mountains

Night

An enchanting moon

Waves dancing in the sea

I’ve all of these in my one Breath

Silent

Avoidance

Whispers

A sad willow tree

On the corner of my

There’s a cliff

So high looking down it’s so deep

Someone’s standing there and that’s me

I escaped

From the world

My bruised feet

My heart covered in scars

My face washed with tears

But now there’s no fear

The Volcano inside me breaths a lot of pain breaking all the chains and there are no more restraints

Now it got a perfect place to erupt……

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One Night Love

One Night Love
But he promised to stay together
Forever and ever after
He’s the guy who made your heartbeats skipped fast
Some meetings and exchange of coffee cups
He told you he loves your innocence and grace
Your eyes, your heart and the smile on your face
He came close and whispered to you
” I love you, your body and it’s shape “.
-Before we get married there are some steps
– let’s know each other more, let’s stay together
It’ll be once, let’s do it together
Together break the boundaries, let’s discover our hearts
Just for one night, then we will never be apart
You were hesitant but he has your heart
You wanted to prove him you are sincere, you love him hard
The lust in his eyes___ you thought it’s love
He’s over tonight, to ruin your life
You were told, it would alright
It was your mistake, your love at first sight
You were thirsty of love, it turned you blind
You are lying bruised, sheets scares you out
He’s on call say ” Baby I’m alright “.
He’s leaving behind the door taking away
Your virginity, dignity, grace and right
You are alone with your screams and night full of fright
You were a toy, someone’s love of one night.

When I Die

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AND WHEN I DIE

SOMEONE STAND UP

ON MY GRAVE AND SAY

SHE SAID SHE WAS IN PAIN

BUT NO ONE HEARD

I want you Completely

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It’s a lot cringy here
The cuts on my heart sting
Every time I see your sight
For how long you will make me
Do the impossible
For how long I’ve to bury my feelings that keep piling up

^_^

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She wasn’t Ok

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I’m giving it a try
I’m going all out
Again I’m taking in all the screams
I’m gonna house all the pain
What about all the tears left without any box to hide
I’m taking all the burden
Again I’m dying and I see no grave where i can bury all the grieves
If I rest there someone stand up and say
She was saying she’s not ok but nobody heard her _
Someone collect my all pieces and send back to me
I’m bleeding but it’s gonna take a lot to pass out
Someone stand close to me then and say
I’ve been waiting for you for so long

-S.killer