I knew that hit him differently.
As If It’s Just a Dream _
What If It rains as the night drops the curtains
Instead of walking you to the door of sleep
You read my eyes telling you to stay
Hiding behind the voice of my heart
What If we sit together On our favorite spot
While you look at the sky
I contemplate your details……
Your eyes, your voice,
the beard on your face
Your smile, your laughter
Your lips murmuring my name
On a dark night
sitting under the moonlight
whispering through silence and smiles
leaving our lips hopeless……away
catching a moment to meet
as the thunder breaks
I feel your strong arms around my waist
your heartbeats, I count your eye lashes
and memorize all of your details
And I won’t keep It a secret…..when I was learning a lot of things, love was removed from the list.
when I was experiencing different feelings, I skipped this feeling.
There was a things called need and all those were fulfilled yet love was never on the list.
I considered hugs fictitious and even had my closest ones deprived of It.
My base was enriched with devotion and how much I owe for one’s goodness….but I wasn’t told adoration.
Now after years I see a complain on the door_ “you don’t love us”…..you dun even care anymore….
“you gave me everything but not what I needed the most, it’s sad, it hurts, it burns but i can’t name it…………. You didn’t taught me how to love…… What is this feeling……… I never know how to love, how tender it is……. I have always been leaving, it has always been easy and I dunno If I really belong to this realm anymore”……
Don’t be mad at me.. I know that sometimes I may look closer to you than your soul, and the next night I’m tough as a rock, cold and far as a star, and I’m fully aware of any harm that a contradiction like this may cause..But I don’t intentionally be confident of this harm, it’s just that my soul is in a permanent tide…..I dun have a shore nor a beach that contains me . I’m owner of a heart that is full of so much yet the core is empty.